Where will you be at the end of 2020

The year is almost done, the DECADE is almost finished. We are entering a new era in my head. We are entering 2020, the year where THIS TIME THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT.

The energy is different and the goals and dreams are bigger and higher. So what can we do to make a change this time? Do you feel you are the same person as you were in 2015, 2016, 2019?! What have changed within you and in your life, or not? I am getting more aware every day, I am getting a better and clear vision of what I want in this LIFE.

First thing I want is to LOVE myself and ACCEPT myself. To give myself everything I want and deserve. I want to live full and die empty. Everything I want in this life has to be done, experienced and lived. I AM MAKING A CHANGE A REAL CHANGE THIS TIME.

I have lived in pain for so long, I have been undermining myself for too long, I have not looked at myself properly and told myself I LOVE YOU, TRULY for a long while. I cannot live like this anymore, and I know I am not the only one. I know many feel the same, and want to excel emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.

ASPIRE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN YOUR LIFE AND IN THE LIFE OF OTHERS.

How are you going to do this and how will you start? I have come up with a plan. The small steps plan, everyday I have to do something as little as eating healthy, staying hydrated or writing in my diary. Every little step we take will at the end make the difference as it will add up to the bigger goals and dreams.

Get yourself a piece of paper and write down your goals and dreams for 2020. Then write the months of the year and break your goal down to make it smaller and to fit in each month. Now break down the month in weeks and write down for each week what things and steps you have to do and take to reach your monthly goal.

Goals should not only be money or work related but also:

Health

Relationships

Self education

Self love

Spiritually

etc.

End of 2020 I will for sure and proudly say I am a different Eman than the year 2019.

I would like to know your thoughts and your experiences. What are the things that you do to make a difference in your daily life?

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Sitting on the floor in the shower

I had a so-so week where I had many ups and also many downs.

Sometimes I just feel like I am selling myself short, I know I can do more, and yet I am still overthinking many things. Although I am working on making it better and actually go and give my full potential.

Yesterday was a very good day, I went for a run (note: in the rain), and then I took myself out on a date to the movies. I love the movies, I love popcorn and soda, and the combination with a big screen is my ideal date. So I went and spend some time with myself and just be on my own. I love to do things on my own, it is so much fun and it really feels like freedom.

Today however, I felt a little bit down, maybe because the weekend is finished, it is full moon, I woke up grumpy or whatever the reason may be. I did not feel myself today and so I took a long shower and sat on the floor. Crying my eyes out. And I allowed myself to do so. It is OK to do so.

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I did not judge myself, I did not feel sorry for myself, I did not think I was a sad girl with all the worries of the world on my shoulder. 

I let it all out, and now I am writing this blog. To let you all know, that sometimes we have amazing days and sometimes we have days that are less amazing but are still amazing because we are alive and there is another chance waiting for us to try and give it our all. And that is the blessing and the gratitude we need to show ourselves and the universe.

May it provide more and more of the amazing days for us.

Thanks for reading!

Life never stops teaching

How many of you think that one day they will be free from problems? How many of you think they will be free from worry or free from the less-good things happening in their life?

I personally think we will never be free of any of that at all, unless you are dead. Then you have no problems at all. You will be then worry free, stress free, problem free, anxiety free. fd9e02ea-10b3-4d56-8991-7a637350e5db

Why is this? Because life never stops teaching and we will never stop learning. In order for us to grow and to get somewhere amazing we have to keep learning, it just never stops! And don’t feel bad about this, because it is actually a good thing! WHY? Because it means that you are developing yourself and becoming a better YOU! Sometimes growth is fun, and sometimes it is less fun and we have to dig through the dirt to see the sunlight.

When I realized this today I felt a bit of heaviness off my shoulders, because the moment of being free of all that will never be here, and it is something that I do not and CANNOT chase. The road that kept leading me into a wall is not on the map anymore, I have erased it. Instead I see it from a new different perspective. Every level has its challenges, and see them as FUN challenges, the ones where you get to know yourself better and go more inwards.

We will not suffer when we grow and reach our goals. Absolutely not, as a matter a fact I think we become even better at solving problems and at “worry”, because we know how to handle it and worry even less. We will become more peaceful with life and with ourselves and allow ourselves to grow. But you have to allow yourself to rise, do not Pas de promessesresist or it will only hurt you even more.

We become a better version, more polished and get through life much easier and with more joy. But before we can enjoy that version of our (future) self, we have to understand that life will never stop teaching and we will never stop learning.

Here is to rising higher and enjoying the sunlight. Cheers!

Paralysed by fear of worthiness

So I have not written a blog in so long because life was teaching me a few lessons in order for me to wake up and give myself the things I deserve. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have figured it all out now. Nope!

I woke up this morning feeling heavy, almost like I couldn’t move. I felt I was mentally and physically paralysed. I tried to get up but I just couldn’t, and even though  I commanded my brain to move my body was stuck to Positive Life Quote Pictures to Share on Facebook, Social Media, Blogthe mattress. I started crying, what is it, that makes me feel so paralysed, why do I always have to go through this every end of the week. And by this I mean the feeling of not being completely satisfied with what I have achieved and what I have done that week.

The thing with me is that I have so much knowledge about so many things, especially the things that I want to do in life, yet I still feel that I am not worthy enough to do it. And this is where I thought I need to start doing some self-love exercises and some self-love-LOVE for myself. So here I am, documenting what I will be going through. Even Though this is way out of my comfort zone, I know that I can help someone with this.

I know what it feels like to be stuck somewhere and not knowing how to move forward. Even if we want to ask people for help it is hard! Because we don’t even know what exactly is going on within us. And this is the battle that I am facing now as well, I know where I want to go, I just feel lost reaching my destination.

26 Inspirational Quotes to Change Your Life - Elyse SantilliBut I have decided for myself today, and that is why I am writing this blog as well. Till here and no more! I am worthy of every little thing that I want to have in my life and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. There is not one human being better than the other to get all the great things in life while other people suffer from depression and anxiety as well as mental health. There must be a way for all of us to see that we ARE WORTHY OF LIFE GREATEST GIFTS!

I read a quote somewhere, not sure exactly who wrote it, but it said the following:

You get in life what you think you deserve.

And THIS one hit home for me, this was the quote that made me realize that everything I was experiencing in life was because I believed I had to go through it!!!! ANYWAYS long story short, I will be documenting my journey through this blog and on Instagram. Feel free to follow me and see what you can benefit from and what now. If you have some tips and tricks for me and things that are good to share with the rest please let me know.

My first step now is journaling and tonight I will start again 🙂

You create yourself

We build ourselves with the choices we make every day, deciding to do something, or not.

When you leave your house in the morning, you will not come back being the same person. You have changed during the day, simply by the choices you have taken that day. Who you hanged out with? What were you thinking, positive or negative thoughts? Did you actually DO what you wanted to DO and know you have to DO or did you slack in discipline and left it?

Be aware of what you are doing today because you are creating the person you will be tomorrow. If you are not happy with yourself at the moment remember that you brought yourself to that position. You have to take responsibility for that and fully understand it. Do not blame anyone for where you are now at the moment but yourself.

So now that you know that you BUILD yourself and you CREATED this person that you are now what would be your next step? Are you going to do the things you NEED to do in order to become the person you want to be tomorrow?

Surround yourself with people who you see yourself with when you are successful, take the choices that you would take if you were already that person that you want to be. Ask yourself, will I do it like this or that if I was already where I want to be? Chances are NO, you would probably take different decisions because you would have a different mind-set, different priorities, you see things differently.

Therefor, be aware of what you are thinking today, what you are eating, what you are doing, who you hang out with, and build yourself from there. Become the person you WANT to be.

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