So I have not written a blog in so long because life was teaching me a few lessons in order for me to wake up and give myself the things I deserve. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have figured it all out now. Nope!
I woke up this morning feeling heavy, almost like I couldn’t move. I felt I was mentally and physically paralysed. I tried to get up but I just couldn’t, and even though I commanded my brain to move my body was stuck to the mattress. I started crying, what is it, that makes me feel so paralysed, why do I always have to go through this every end of the week. And by this I mean the feeling of not being completely satisfied with what I have achieved and what I have done that week.
The thing with me is that I have so much knowledge about so many things, especially the things that I want to do in life, yet I still feel that I am not worthy enough to do it. And this is where I thought I need to start doing some self-love exercises and some self-love-LOVE for myself. So here I am, documenting what I will be going through. Even Though this is way out of my comfort zone, I know that I can help someone with this.
I know what it feels like to be stuck somewhere and not knowing how to move forward. Even if we want to ask people for help it is hard! Because we don’t even know what exactly is going on within us. And this is the battle that I am facing now as well, I know where I want to go, I just feel lost reaching my destination.
But I have decided for myself today, and that is why I am writing this blog as well. Till here and no more! I am worthy of every little thing that I want to have in my life and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. There is not one human being better than the other to get all the great things in life while other people suffer from depression and anxiety as well as mental health. There must be a way for all of us to see that we ARE WORTHY OF LIFE GREATEST GIFTS!
I read a quote somewhere, not sure exactly who wrote it, but it said the following:
You get in life what you think you deserve.
And THIS one hit home for me, this was the quote that made me realize that everything I was experiencing in life was because I believed I had to go through it!!!! ANYWAYS long story short, I will be documenting my journey through this blog and on Instagram. Feel free to follow me and see what you can benefit from and what now. If you have some tips and tricks for me and things that are good to share with the rest please let me know.
My first step now is journaling and tonight I will start again 🙂