Mission failed

Hey everyone,

I had and still have a bad habit………. Smoking 😦 I tried to quite a few weeks ago but unfortunately I failed. I couldn’t resist anymore and started again. It is such a disappointment because I do feel that I inspire with my running lifestyle, and so I want to be a good example for people.

HOWEVER! I like to inspire people through my imperfection, showing that I am a human and I do have bad habits as well. That it is possible to change and that I am working on it. So there it is…. I failed in quitting but on the other hand an new chance has been created to stop. 

Anyways, looks like I’m trying to find some excuses to keep smoking, but no I’m not. I want to quit but it is harder than I thought. So I did some research on the internet on how to quite. I found a few good things that might work for me. Anywhoooooo I cannot promise you or myself that I will quit immediately, I do however, can say that I will definitely be smoke free at the end of June, or even sooner. Does that sounds like a good deadline? I think so. 

I started smoking when I was stressing out with some things (school and other stuff)… and now I have been feeling very guitly for even starting. I also have some troubles with breathing sometimes. That caught my attention, and I started reading stuff on the internet about smoking. I must admit I got scared. Next week Monday I have an appointment with the doctor and to be honest I am scared. Now that I’m writing this… lets put the deadline on next week Monday, the sooner the better.

So this is my weakness, and I’m a little bit embarrassed, but who cares. I think that if I am the person that inspires you, than you have the right to also know what my weakness is, just so you guys know that I’m not perfect. But I AM working on it.