Sitting on the floor in the shower

I had a so-so week where I had many ups and also many downs.

Sometimes I just feel like I am selling myself short, I know I can do more, and yet I am still overthinking many things. Although I am working on making it better and actually go and give my full potential.

Yesterday was a very good day, I went for a run (note: in the rain), and then I took myself out on a date to the movies. I love the movies, I love popcorn and soda, and the combination with a big screen is my ideal date. So I went and spend some time with myself and just be on my own. I love to do things on my own, it is so much fun and it really feels like freedom.

Today however, I felt a little bit down, maybe because the weekend is finished, it is full moon, I woke up grumpy or whatever the reason may be. I did not feel myself today and so I took a long shower and sat on the floor. Crying my eyes out. And I allowed myself to do so. It is OK to do so.

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I did not judge myself, I did not feel sorry for myself, I did not think I was a sad girl with all the worries of the world on my shoulder. 

I let it all out, and now I am writing this blog. To let you all know, that sometimes we have amazing days and sometimes we have days that are less amazing but are still amazing because we are alive and there is another chance waiting for us to try and give it our all. And that is the blessing and the gratitude we need to show ourselves and the universe.

May it provide more and more of the amazing days for us.

Thanks for reading!

Life never stops teaching

How many of you think that one day they will be free from problems? How many of you think they will be free from worry or free from the less-good things happening in their life?

I personally think we will never be free of any of that at all, unless you are dead. Then you have no problems at all. You will be then worry free, stress free, problem free, anxiety free. fd9e02ea-10b3-4d56-8991-7a637350e5db

Why is this? Because life never stops teaching and we will never stop learning. In order for us to grow and to get somewhere amazing we have to keep learning, it just never stops! And don’t feel bad about this, because it is actually a good thing! WHY? Because it means that you are developing yourself and becoming a better YOU! Sometimes growth is fun, and sometimes it is less fun and we have to dig through the dirt to see the sunlight.

When I realized this today I felt a bit of heaviness off my shoulders, because the moment of being free of all that will never be here, and it is something that I do not and CANNOT chase. The road that kept leading me into a wall is not on the map anymore, I have erased it. Instead I see it from a new different perspective. Every level has its challenges, and see them as FUN challenges, the ones where you get to know yourself better and go more inwards.

We will not suffer when we grow and reach our goals. Absolutely not, as a matter a fact I think we become even better at solving problems and at “worry”, because we know how to handle it and worry even less. We will become more peaceful with life and with ourselves and allow ourselves to grow. But you have to allow yourself to rise, do not Pas de promessesresist or it will only hurt you even more.

We become a better version, more polished and get through life much easier and with more joy. But before we can enjoy that version of our (future) self, we have to understand that life will never stop teaching and we will never stop learning.

Here is to rising higher and enjoying the sunlight. Cheers!

Paralysed by fear of worthiness

So I have not written a blog in so long because life was teaching me a few lessons in order for me to wake up and give myself the things I deserve. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have figured it all out now. Nope!

I woke up this morning feeling heavy, almost like I couldn’t move. I felt I was mentally and physically paralysed. I tried to get up but I just couldn’t, and even though  I commanded my brain to move my body was stuck to Positive Life Quote Pictures to Share on Facebook, Social Media, Blogthe mattress. I started crying, what is it, that makes me feel so paralysed, why do I always have to go through this every end of the week. And by this I mean the feeling of not being completely satisfied with what I have achieved and what I have done that week.

The thing with me is that I have so much knowledge about so many things, especially the things that I want to do in life, yet I still feel that I am not worthy enough to do it. And this is where I thought I need to start doing some self-love exercises and some self-love-LOVE for myself. So here I am, documenting what I will be going through. Even Though this is way out of my comfort zone, I know that I can help someone with this.

I know what it feels like to be stuck somewhere and not knowing how to move forward. Even if we want to ask people for help it is hard! Because we don’t even know what exactly is going on within us. And this is the battle that I am facing now as well, I know where I want to go, I just feel lost reaching my destination.

26 Inspirational Quotes to Change Your Life - Elyse SantilliBut I have decided for myself today, and that is why I am writing this blog as well. Till here and no more! I am worthy of every little thing that I want to have in my life and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. There is not one human being better than the other to get all the great things in life while other people suffer from depression and anxiety as well as mental health. There must be a way for all of us to see that we ARE WORTHY OF LIFE GREATEST GIFTS!

I read a quote somewhere, not sure exactly who wrote it, but it said the following:

You get in life what you think you deserve.

And THIS one hit home for me, this was the quote that made me realize that everything I was experiencing in life was because I believed I had to go through it!!!! ANYWAYS long story short, I will be documenting my journey through this blog and on Instagram. Feel free to follow me and see what you can benefit from and what now. If you have some tips and tricks for me and things that are good to share with the rest please let me know.

My first step now is journaling and tonight I will start again 🙂