Sitting on the floor in the shower

I had a so-so week where I had many ups and also many downs.

Sometimes I just feel like I am selling myself short, I know I can do more, and yet I am still overthinking many things. Although I am working on making it better and actually go and give my full potential.

Yesterday was a very good day, I went for a run (note: in the rain), and then I took myself out on a date to the movies. I love the movies, I love popcorn and soda, and the combination with a big screen is my ideal date. So I went and spend some time with myself and just be on my own. I love to do things on my own, it is so much fun and it really feels like freedom.

Today however, I felt a little bit down, maybe because the weekend is finished, it is full moon, I woke up grumpy or whatever the reason may be. I did not feel myself today and so I took a long shower and sat on the floor. Crying my eyes out. And I allowed myself to do so. It is OK to do so.

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I did not judge myself, I did not feel sorry for myself, I did not think I was a sad girl with all the worries of the world on my shoulder. 

I let it all out, and now I am writing this blog. To let you all know, that sometimes we have amazing days and sometimes we have days that are less amazing but are still amazing because we are alive and there is another chance waiting for us to try and give it our all. And that is the blessing and the gratitude we need to show ourselves and the universe.

May it provide more and more of the amazing days for us.

Thanks for reading!

Useless advice

We are all walking around giving people advice that need it and tell everyone what to do and how to solve their problems.

What you preach, you have to practise yourself. What is the use of giving advice when you don’t even follow your own? Many say you have to be patience in life and what not, yet when they are waiting in line at the supermarket they count the seconds.

People tell others to be nice and accepting of everyone and not to discriminate, yet when someone is different then them, they will be first one to point out the differences.

Everyone posts on their social media to follow dreams, to go after what they want, to be positive, that happiness comes from within, yet all they do is complaining about their daily jobs and how bad they hate it. How they are unhappy and they are not living the life they wish to live.

If you are a walking spiritual – religious – positive – happy guru, why don’t you take your own advice? Why is it that we have solutions for everyone but ourselves?

We are too scared to look within, and our minds want to occupy the empty space that we have to solve our own problems with someone’s problems. We love to solve other people’s problems, we want to hear more complaining, more rumors, more problems because at least we are turning the focus on someone else.

You can always help others, but don’t forget your own life. We can not forget ourselves, our beautiful souls need healing too. We need someone that can listen to us too. Not hearing our complains, but hearing our pain and help us heal it.

When the time has passed, it will be too late to start thinking about what we could have done, should have done, should have healed, could have tried.

Why is it that on our deathbeds we start thinking about our life, why don’t we think about it now that we are alive!

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