I took it for granted

I took it for granted

The way of life has changed, was used be normal will never be normal again. We are entering a new level of normal, a different normal. But not how it used to be. And to me it feels like an era has come to an end, 2020 is indeed a new beginning to many. Thinking back, I feel like I have taken many things for granted. Though I can not turn back time, I did learn (and I think many of us) that we have to be grateful for everything in life.

Starting today, make it a priority to make a list of the things you are grateful for. Or take 3 minutes of your time to think about the things you are grateful for. Lift up your mood, mention the little things that you wouldn’t otherwise think of. Such as being able to hear, to feel, to smell, to taste. The little things in the end is what really matters. Your health that you might take for granted. Your legs, your arms and your heart. All healthy and working, be thankful for that. Even though if you’re not healthy a 100% or you have things that might limit you from doing certain activities, be thankful you are alive and breathing. Be thankful that you are you and you get to live another day. For some, they have taken their last breath last night.

Attitude for gratitude will make times like this easier and more bearable. Take care of yourself, stay safe and be mindful.

God bless 🤲🏼❤️

Paris marathon postponed, now what?

Paris marathon postponed, now what?

I started training for the Paris marathon on the 2nd of December 2019. Four runs every week including one long distance run on the Sunday’s. I woke up early in the morning to do my runs or I did them in the evening after work. I missed some fun activities with my family as I had to do my long runs and I knew it would take me more than one hour.

Whether it was a dark cold morning or a rainy evening, I always did my best 💪🏼.

NOW… the Paris marathon has been postponed from the 5th of April 2020 to the 18th of October 2020. This means that I have to start a new schedule this summer to train for October. Also, I will choose a schedule that is a bit more difficult. This is because I want to go for my desired time, to finish a marathon in 4 hours (my ultimate goal for this marathon) and I’m fit enough to push a bit more 🏃🏻‍♀️.

Here is what I have learned for the past 13 weeks of training (which I will improve in the next few months):

  • I can do more than what I think I can, I should not doubt myself and give anything less than a 100%.
  • I have to listen to my body, when I am tired or I need rest, I SHOULD take rest.
  • I have to do exercises for my knees, feet and core as well as stretching (maybe yoga?).
  • I have to eat the right food before my long runs. I did underestimate it sometimes and went on a run with not enough fuel.
  • I have to do intervals, though my last schedule didn’t have intervals because it was for beginners. And to be honest I didn’t mind because I don’t like intervals (oops 😅). But I need variation in my training when it comes to pace, distance and intensity of my runs.
  • Enter more races (makes the long distance runs much easier)

I also went to the sport doctor which told me that everything was fine with me and I can easily run a marathon in 4 hours. Wiehoo!!! Always good to hear 😄.

For now I want to run 3 times a week and do some strength exercises before the next training starts which will be somewhere in June. I am also excited, and happy that I will be running in a much better weather (hello spring and hello summer 🌸☀️)

P.S. Here is a picture of how my brain and heart function during a run -.-”

 

Where will you be at the end of 2020

Where will you be at the end of 2020

The year is almost done, the DECADE is almost finished. We are entering a new era in my head. We are entering 2020, the year where THIS TIME THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT.

The energy is different and the goals and dreams are bigger and higher. So what can we do to make a change this time? Do you feel you are the same person as you were in 2015, 2016, 2019?! What have changed within you and in your life, or not? I am getting more aware every day, I am getting a better and clear vision of what I want in this LIFE.

First thing I want is to LOVE myself and ACCEPT myself. To give myself everything I want and deserve. I want to live full and die empty. Everything I want in this life has to be done, experienced and lived. I AM MAKING A CHANGE A REAL CHANGE THIS TIME.

I have lived in pain for so long, I have been undermining myself for too long, I have not looked at myself properly and told myself I LOVE YOU, TRULY for a long while. I cannot live like this anymore, and I know I am not the only one. I know many feel the same, and want to excel emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually.

ASPIRE TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN YOUR LIFE AND IN THE LIFE OF OTHERS.

How are you going to do this and how will you start? I have come up with a plan. The small steps plan, everyday I have to do something as little as eating healthy, staying hydrated or writing in my diary. Every little step we take will at the end make the difference as it will add up to the bigger goals and dreams.

Get yourself a piece of paper and write down your goals and dreams for 2020. Then write the months of the year and break your goal down to make it smaller and to fit in each month. Now break down the month in weeks and write down for each week what things and steps you have to do and take to reach your monthly goal.

Goals should not only be money or work related but also:

Health

Relationships

Self education

Self love

Spiritually

etc.

End of 2020 I will for sure and proudly say I am a different Eman than the year 2019.

I would like to know your thoughts and your experiences. What are the things that you do to make a difference in your daily life?

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Sitting on the floor in the shower

Sitting on the floor in the shower

I had a so-so week where I had many ups and also many downs.

Sometimes I just feel like I am selling myself short, I know I can do more, and yet I am still overthinking many things. Although I am working on making it better and actually go and give my full potential.

Yesterday was a very good day, I went for a run (note: in the rain), and then I took myself out on a date to the movies. I love the movies, I love popcorn and soda, and the combination with a big screen is my ideal date. So I went and spend some time with myself and just be on my own. I love to do things on my own, it is so much fun and it really feels like freedom.

Today however, I felt a little bit down, maybe because the weekend is finished, it is full moon, I woke up grumpy or whatever the reason may be. I did not feel myself today and so I took a long shower and sat on the floor. Crying my eyes out. And I allowed myself to do so. It is OK to do so.

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I did not judge myself, I did not feel sorry for myself, I did not think I was a sad girl with all the worries of the world on my shoulder. 

I let it all out, and now I am writing this blog. To let you all know, that sometimes we have amazing days and sometimes we have days that are less amazing but are still amazing because we are alive and there is another chance waiting for us to try and give it our all. And that is the blessing and the gratitude we need to show ourselves and the universe.

May it provide more and more of the amazing days for us.

Thanks for reading!

Life never stops teaching

Life never stops teaching

How many of you think that one day they will be free from problems? How many of you think they will be free from worry or free from the less-good things happening in their life?

I personally think we will never be free of any of that at all, unless you are dead. Then you have no problems at all. You will be then worry free, stress free, problem free, anxiety free. fd9e02ea-10b3-4d56-8991-7a637350e5db

Why is this? Because life never stops teaching and we will never stop learning. In order for us to grow and to get somewhere amazing we have to keep learning, it just never stops! And don’t feel bad about this, because it is actually a good thing! WHY? Because it means that you are developing yourself and becoming a better YOU! Sometimes growth is fun, and sometimes it is less fun and we have to dig through the dirt to see the sunlight.

When I realized this today I felt a bit of heaviness off my shoulders, because the moment of being free of all that will never be here, and it is something that I do not and CANNOT chase. The road that kept leading me into a wall is not on the map anymore, I have erased it. Instead I see it from a new different perspective. Every level has its challenges, and see them as FUN challenges, the ones where you get to know yourself better and go more inwards.

We will not suffer when we grow and reach our goals. Absolutely not, as a matter a fact I think we become even better at solving problems and at “worry”, because we know how to handle it and worry even less. We will become more peaceful with life and with ourselves and allow ourselves to grow. But you have to allow yourself to rise, do not Pas de promessesresist or it will only hurt you even more.

We become a better version, more polished and get through life much easier and with more joy. But before we can enjoy that version of our (future) self, we have to understand that life will never stop teaching and we will never stop learning.

Here is to rising higher and enjoying the sunlight. Cheers!