Paris marathon postponed, now what?

Paris marathon postponed, now what?

I started training for the Paris marathon on the 2nd of December 2019. Four runs every week including one long distance run on the Sunday’s. I woke up early in the morning to do my runs or I did them in the evening after work. I missed some fun activities with my family as I had to do my long runs and I knew it would take me more than one hour.

Whether it was a dark cold morning or a rainy evening, I always did my best ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿผ.

NOW… the Paris marathon has been postponed from the 5th of April 2020 to the 18th of October 2020. This means that I have to start a new schedule this summer to train for October. Also, I will choose a schedule that is a bit more difficult. This is because I want to go for my desired time, to finish a marathon in 4 hours (my ultimate goal for this marathon) and I’m fit enough to push a bit more ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ.

Here is what I have learned for the past 13 weeks of training (which I will improve in the next few months):

  • I can do more than what I think I can, I should not doubt myself and give anything less than a 100%.
  • I have to listen to my body, when I am tired or I need rest, I SHOULD take rest.
  • I have to do exercises for my knees, feet and core as well as stretching (maybe yoga?).
  • I have to eat the right food before my long runs. I did underestimate it sometimes and went on a run with not enough fuel.
  • I have to do intervals, though my last schedule didn’t have intervals because it was for beginners. And to be honest I didn’t mind because I don’t like intervals (oops ๐Ÿ˜…). But I need variation in my training when it comes to pace, distance and intensity of my runs.
  • Enter more races (makes the long distance runs much easier)

I also went to the sport doctor which told me that everything was fine with me and I can easily run a marathon in 4 hours. Wiehoo!!! Always good to hear ๐Ÿ˜„.

For now I want to run 3 times a week and do some strength exercises before the next training starts which will be somewhere in June. I am also excited, and happy that I will be running in a much better weather (hello spring and hello summer ๐ŸŒธโ˜€๏ธ)

P.S. Here is a picture of how my brain and heart function during a run -.-”

 

Paralysed by fear of worthiness

Paralysed by fear of worthiness

So I have not written a blog in so long because life was teaching me a few lessons in order for me to wake up and give myself the things I deserve. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have figured it all out now. Nope!

I woke up this morning feeling heavy, almost like I couldn’t move. I felt I was mentally and physically paralysed. I tried to get up but I just couldn’t, and even thoughย  I commanded my brain to move my body was stuck toย Positive Life Quote Pictures to Share on Facebook, Social Media, Blogthe mattress. I started crying, what is it, that makes me feel so paralysed, why do I always have to go through this every end of the week. And by this I mean the feeling of not being completely satisfied with what I have achieved and what I have done that week.

The thing with me is that I have so much knowledge about so many things, especially the things that I want to do in life, yet I still feel that I am not worthy enough to do it. And this is where I thought I need to start doing some self-love exercises and some self-love-LOVE for myself. So here I am, documenting what I will be going through. Even Though this is way out of my comfort zone, I know that I can help someone with this.

I know what it feels like to be stuck somewhere and not knowing how to move forward. Even if we want to ask people for help it is hard! Because we don’t even know what exactly is going on within us. And this is the battle that I am facing now as well, I know where I want to go, I just feel lost reaching my destination.

26 Inspirational Quotes to Change Your Life - Elyse SantilliBut I have decided for myself today, and that is why I am writing this blog as well. Till here and no more! I am worthy of every little thing that I want to have in my life and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. There is not one human being better than the other to get all the great things in life while other people suffer from depression and anxiety as well as mental health. There must be a way for all of us to see that we ARE WORTHY OF LIFE GREATEST GIFTS!

I read a quote somewhere, not sure exactly who wrote it, but it said the following:

You get in life what you think you deserve.

And THIS one hit home for me, this was the quote that made me realize that everything I was experiencing in life was because I believed I had to go through it!!!! ANYWAYS long story short, I will be documenting my journey through this blog and on Instagram.ย Feel free to follow me and see what you can benefit from and what now. If you have some tips and tricks for me and things that are good to share with the rest please let me know.

My first step now is journaling and tonight I will start again ๐Ÿ™‚