Sitting on the floor in the shower

I had a so-so week where I had many ups and also many downs.

Sometimes I just feel like I am selling myself short, I know I can do more, and yet I am still overthinking many things. Although I am working on making it better and actually go and give my full potential.

Yesterday was a very good day, I went for a run (note: in the rain), and then I took myself out on a date to the movies. I love the movies, I love popcorn and soda, and the combination with a big screen is my ideal date. So I went and spend some time with myself and just be on my own. I love to do things on my own, it is so much fun and it really feels like freedom.

Today however, I felt a little bit down, maybe because the weekend is finished, it is full moon, I woke up grumpy or whatever the reason may be. I did not feel myself today and so I took a long shower and sat on the floor. Crying my eyes out. And I allowed myself to do so. It is OK to do so.

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I did not judge myself, I did not feel sorry for myself, I did not think I was a sad girl with all the worries of the world on my shoulder. 

I let it all out, and now I am writing this blog. To let you all know, that sometimes we have amazing days and sometimes we have days that are less amazing but are still amazing because we are alive and there is another chance waiting for us to try and give it our all. And that is the blessing and the gratitude we need to show ourselves and the universe.

May it provide more and more of the amazing days for us.

Thanks for reading!

Paralysed by fear of worthiness

So I have not written a blog in so long because life was teaching me a few lessons in order for me to wake up and give myself the things I deserve. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have figured it all out now. Nope!

I woke up this morning feeling heavy, almost like I couldn’t move. I felt I was mentally and physically paralysed. I tried to get up but I just couldn’t, and even though  I commanded my brain to move my body was stuck to Positive Life Quote Pictures to Share on Facebook, Social Media, Blogthe mattress. I started crying, what is it, that makes me feel so paralysed, why do I always have to go through this every end of the week. And by this I mean the feeling of not being completely satisfied with what I have achieved and what I have done that week.

The thing with me is that I have so much knowledge about so many things, especially the things that I want to do in life, yet I still feel that I am not worthy enough to do it. And this is where I thought I need to start doing some self-love exercises and some self-love-LOVE for myself. So here I am, documenting what I will be going through. Even Though this is way out of my comfort zone, I know that I can help someone with this.

I know what it feels like to be stuck somewhere and not knowing how to move forward. Even if we want to ask people for help it is hard! Because we don’t even know what exactly is going on within us. And this is the battle that I am facing now as well, I know where I want to go, I just feel lost reaching my destination.

26 Inspirational Quotes to Change Your Life - Elyse SantilliBut I have decided for myself today, and that is why I am writing this blog as well. Till here and no more! I am worthy of every little thing that I want to have in my life and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. There is not one human being better than the other to get all the great things in life while other people suffer from depression and anxiety as well as mental health. There must be a way for all of us to see that we ARE WORTHY OF LIFE GREATEST GIFTS!

I read a quote somewhere, not sure exactly who wrote it, but it said the following:

You get in life what you think you deserve.

And THIS one hit home for me, this was the quote that made me realize that everything I was experiencing in life was because I believed I had to go through it!!!! ANYWAYS long story short, I will be documenting my journey through this blog and on Instagram. Feel free to follow me and see what you can benefit from and what now. If you have some tips and tricks for me and things that are good to share with the rest please let me know.

My first step now is journaling and tonight I will start again 🙂

How much are you worth

When you read the title of this post did you have the answer right away?

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How much are you worth? Who do you think you are right now? What will people pay in exchange for your products and services?  If you are a company and a perfect stranger wants to invest in you, and they look into your life and work, do you think they will take the chance or skip it and go find another person to invest in?

What determines your self-worth?

We have to all think about that, are you developing yourself, do you have confidence in yourself, do you trust what you do and do you trust that it can change people’s life for the best? The career you have the job you have, do you think you are worth it or more? Do you believe that you are giving all you can or are you performing under average?

So many questions we have to ask ourselves if we are not happy and satisfied with the life that we are living at the moment. People complain about why they do no

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t have enough money or why they don’t have enough friends, they complain that everyone is to blame but not them. If you find yourself complaining, ask yourself what can you do better now to improve your future value? Like I said in my previous post, you create yourself, and by creating yourself, you determine your own value.

See yourself as company and you are the president. What else do you need to make this company grow, to make profit, to stay in business to keep the president of the company happy. If we are not moving even for a little bit every day, if we are not doing something everyday that can add a little value to the company, than soon enough you will be out of business. Look around you, look at the industry that you are competing in, that you are part of, what are the other companies doing that you are not doing. How are they educating themselves, what are the actions they take. Learn from others and improve yourself. If you have no one to look up to, EDUCATE yourself.

Don’t go out of business, remember, as long as you are moving fast or slow, as long as you are adding value, big or little, you are going in the right direction. Think of yourself as a company and you are the president, do you want to get bankrupt and lose your company, lose yourself? Don’t underestimate a little action, for the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step (Lao Tzu).

You create yourself

We build ourselves with the choices we make every day, deciding to do something, or not.

When you leave your house in the morning, you will not come back being the same person. You have changed during the day, simply by the choices you have taken that day. Who you hanged out with? What were you thinking, positive or negative thoughts? Did you actually DO what you wanted to DO and know you have to DO or did you slack in discipline and left it?

Be aware of what you are doing today because you are creating the person you will be tomorrow. If you are not happy with yourself at the moment remember that you brought yourself to that position. You have to take responsibility for that and fully understand it. Do not blame anyone for where you are now at the moment but yourself.

So now that you know that you BUILD yourself and you CREATED this person that you are now what would be your next step? Are you going to do the things you NEED to do in order to become the person you want to be tomorrow?

Surround yourself with people who you see yourself with when you are successful, take the choices that you would take if you were already that person that you want to be. Ask yourself, will I do it like this or that if I was already where I want to be? Chances are NO, you would probably take different decisions because you would have a different mind-set, different priorities, you see things differently.

Therefor, be aware of what you are thinking today, what you are eating, what you are doing, who you hang out with, and build yourself from there. Become the person you WANT to be.

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The healthy breakfast

I have been trying to eat healthy since I came back from my holiday. I went to visit my families and when I am on a holiday I like to let myself go and enjoy all the food. I never calculate calories or such.

Since I came back to Sydney, I made sure that there is always something healthy to eat in the fridge. Yesterday, I was lying down in bed and I could not sleep. Scrolling down Instagram I found some very creative ways of having my yoghurt with my Muesli and fruit. I could not wait for the morning to come so I can create something delicious for myself.

And here it is:

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Ingredients: Strawberries, Muesli, Nuts, Vanilla Yoghurt, Orange, Apple, and Berries 🙂

Since I am injured and I cannot exercise, I thought to myself I have to eat healthy because I am not moving a lot at the moment. This breakfast was delicious, fresh, smooth and crunchy.

Try it out and let me know your thoughts!

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