Paralysed by fear of worthiness

So I have not written a blog in so long because life was teaching me a few lessons in order for me to wake up and give myself the things I deserve. Now, this doesn’t mean that I have figured it all out now. Nope!

I woke up this morning feeling heavy, almost like I couldn’t move. I felt I was mentally and physically paralysed. I tried to get up but I just couldn’t, and even though  I commanded my brain to move my body was stuck to Positive Life Quote Pictures to Share on Facebook, Social Media, Blogthe mattress. I started crying, what is it, that makes me feel so paralysed, why do I always have to go through this every end of the week. And by this I mean the feeling of not being completely satisfied with what I have achieved and what I have done that week.

The thing with me is that I have so much knowledge about so many things, especially the things that I want to do in life, yet I still feel that I am not worthy enough to do it. And this is where I thought I need to start doing some self-love exercises and some self-love-LOVE for myself. So here I am, documenting what I will be going through. Even Though this is way out of my comfort zone, I know that I can help someone with this.

I know what it feels like to be stuck somewhere and not knowing how to move forward. Even if we want to ask people for help it is hard! Because we don’t even know what exactly is going on within us. And this is the battle that I am facing now as well, I know where I want to go, I just feel lost reaching my destination.

26 Inspirational Quotes to Change Your Life - Elyse SantilliBut I have decided for myself today, and that is why I am writing this blog as well. Till here and no more! I am worthy of every little thing that I want to have in my life and all the beautiful things that life has to offer. There is not one human being better than the other to get all the great things in life while other people suffer from depression and anxiety as well as mental health. There must be a way for all of us to see that we ARE WORTHY OF LIFE GREATEST GIFTS!

I read a quote somewhere, not sure exactly who wrote it, but it said the following:

You get in life what you think you deserve.

And THIS one hit home for me, this was the quote that made me realize that everything I was experiencing in life was because I believed I had to go through it!!!! ANYWAYS long story short, I will be documenting my journey through this blog and on Instagram. Feel free to follow me and see what you can benefit from and what now. If you have some tips and tricks for me and things that are good to share with the rest please let me know.

My first step now is journaling and tonight I will start again 🙂

Monday Motivation

Another beautiful morning, how much I’m grateful for writing another blog. WELCOME MONDAY!

I got motivated by two videos I saw last week of Les Brown. He is amazing and when he speaks his words just hit you…. REAL HARD. Like BAM!!! He is so powerful and when I listen to him, his words always touch me. No matter what mood I’m in. He always manages to move something within me, a power, something starts to itch. I JUST WANT TO GET UP AND SCREAM

I           CAN                DO                 THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I (highly!!!!!) recommend you all to go and watch these two videos:

Video 1: Keep digging

Video 2: Negative people

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Monday Motivation

I arrived at work, said good morning to my colleagues and got myself a cup of coffee. It’s Monday morning again and you can see it on people’s faces. Oohh they look so happy (being sarcastic is one of my strong points). And as I was checking my mailbox I heard some of my colleagues talking about the re-organization. They might be the next to leave, so they were talking about what will happen and if they have a plan B.

One of them said, well I guess I have to start looking for a new job again, I don’t have a back-up plan… I do have a business plan of 24 years ago when I was still in University. ‘A BUSINESS PLAN THAT IS STILL THERE FOR 24 YEARS’ yelled my mind. What did it do for 24 years??? Were you waiting for the idea to jump out of the paper and start working for itself? Or was it fear that was holding you back… Maybe people told you how stupid your idea was. Or you were searching for security so you took a job at a company where you have been working for many many many years.

And I was right, in this situation, it was the “security” that he was looking for. Security? A secure job? Haha, please don’t make me laugh. I think it is even more SECURE to work out your dream than working for someone else. Because SOMEDAY, SOMEONE might (more or less WILL) kick you out of their company, because THEY don’t need you anymore for their dreams.

What a morning… again the universe is sending me signals, and words and people and circumstances where my faith and knowledge is being confirmed. Work on your dream UNTIL you live it, BECAUSE THIS IS YOUR LIFE.  

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Year 2015 and a half

Do you remember the blog I posted a few months ago about goals and how to have a great 2015 (click here)?

Well this post is about evaluating what you have done and how you can still make 2015 a great year!

Look back at your goals list and see which once you have already accomplished or still working on. Some made an actions plan which means the things they are going to do to help them reach their goals. A few evaluation questions that you have to ask yourself when taking ANY further steps.

  • Are these still my goals and actions I want to take and reach?
  • How far have I came?
  • What have I learned from (the wrong approach, decisions, strategies) it?
  • How can I improve my second half year of 2015?
  • Is it SMART?
  • Do I have to adjust my plans?
  • Can I add more goals/action plans?

Essential questions! If you have some of your own or related to your goals please add them and write everything down in your journal if you have kept one. You can also just write it on a piece of paper. But it is important to have it written down somewhere (HAND WRITTEN PLEASE) and carry it with you.

Look every once in a while and use it as a compass to your goals.

And never forget to thank yourself for the past few months and the progress (even if it is VERY SMALL). You are doing great!

Stay committed

One of the most powerful things that I have ever read from the book ‘Awaken the giant within’ by Anthony Robbins.

“You need to set and live by these *standards no matter what happens in your life. Even if it all goes wrong, even if it rains on you parade, even if the stock market crashes, even if your lover leaves you, even if no one gives you the support that you need, you still must stay committed to your decision that you will live your life at the highest level.”

*The standards that you have set up for yourself to live the life you want!