Sitting on the floor in the shower

I had a so-so week where I had many ups and also many downs.

Sometimes I just feel like I am selling myself short, I know I can do more, and yet I am still overthinking many things. Although I am working on making it better and actually go and give my full potential.

Yesterday was a very good day, I went for a run (note: in the rain), and then I took myself out on a date to the movies. I love the movies, I love popcorn and soda, and the combination with a big screen is my ideal date. So I went and spend some time with myself and just be on my own. I love to do things on my own, it is so much fun and it really feels like freedom.

Today however, I felt a little bit down, maybe because the weekend is finished, it is full moon, I woke up grumpy or whatever the reason may be. I did not feel myself today and so I took a long shower and sat on the floor. Crying my eyes out. And I allowed myself to do so. It is OK to do so.

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I did not judge myself, I did not feel sorry for myself, I did not think I was a sad girl with all the worries of the world on my shoulder. 

I let it all out, and now I am writing this blog. To let you all know, that sometimes we have amazing days and sometimes we have days that are less amazing but are still amazing because we are alive and there is another chance waiting for us to try and give it our all. And that is the blessing and the gratitude we need to show ourselves and the universe.

May it provide more and more of the amazing days for us.

Thanks for reading!

Life never stops teaching

How many of you think that one day they will be free from problems? How many of you think they will be free from worry or free from the less-good things happening in their life?

I personally think we will never be free of any of that at all, unless you are dead. Then you have no problems at all. You will be then worry free, stress free, problem free, anxiety free. fd9e02ea-10b3-4d56-8991-7a637350e5db

Why is this? Because life never stops teaching and we will never stop learning. In order for us to grow and to get somewhere amazing we have to keep learning, it just never stops! And don’t feel bad about this, because it is actually a good thing! WHY? Because it means that you are developing yourself and becoming a better YOU! Sometimes growth is fun, and sometimes it is less fun and we have to dig through the dirt to see the sunlight.

When I realized this today I felt a bit of heaviness off my shoulders, because the moment of being free of all that will never be here, and it is something that I do not and CANNOT chase. The road that kept leading me into a wall is not on the map anymore, I have erased it. Instead I see it from a new different perspective. Every level has its challenges, and see them as FUN challenges, the ones where you get to know yourself better and go more inwards.

We will not suffer when we grow and reach our goals. Absolutely not, as a matter a fact I think we become even better at solving problems and at “worry”, because we know how to handle it and worry even less. We will become more peaceful with life and with ourselves and allow ourselves to grow. But you have to allow yourself to rise, do not Pas de promessesresist or it will only hurt you even more.

We become a better version, more polished and get through life much easier and with more joy. But before we can enjoy that version of our (future) self, we have to understand that life will never stop teaching and we will never stop learning.

Here is to rising higher and enjoying the sunlight. Cheers!

How much are you worth

When you read the title of this post did you have the answer right away?

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How much are you worth? Who do you think you are right now? What will people pay in exchange for your products and services?  If you are a company and a perfect stranger wants to invest in you, and they look into your life and work, do you think they will take the chance or skip it and go find another person to invest in?

What determines your self-worth?

We have to all think about that, are you developing yourself, do you have confidence in yourself, do you trust what you do and do you trust that it can change people’s life for the best? The career you have the job you have, do you think you are worth it or more? Do you believe that you are giving all you can or are you performing under average?

So many questions we have to ask ourselves if we are not happy and satisfied with the life that we are living at the moment. People complain about why they do no

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t have enough money or why they don’t have enough friends, they complain that everyone is to blame but not them. If you find yourself complaining, ask yourself what can you do better now to improve your future value? Like I said in my previous post, you create yourself, and by creating yourself, you determine your own value.

See yourself as company and you are the president. What else do you need to make this company grow, to make profit, to stay in business to keep the president of the company happy. If we are not moving even for a little bit every day, if we are not doing something everyday that can add a little value to the company, than soon enough you will be out of business. Look around you, look at the industry that you are competing in, that you are part of, what are the other companies doing that you are not doing. How are they educating themselves, what are the actions they take. Learn from others and improve yourself. If you have no one to look up to, EDUCATE yourself.

Don’t go out of business, remember, as long as you are moving fast or slow, as long as you are adding value, big or little, you are going in the right direction. Think of yourself as a company and you are the president, do you want to get bankrupt and lose your company, lose yourself? Don’t underestimate a little action, for the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step (Lao Tzu).

The simple things in life

To be able to enjoy your life and be simply happy doesn’t sound so simple at all. Many people say they will be happy when this happens or when that special person comes into their life or when they get a promotion. The problem with this attitude is that you will probably never be simply happy in your life. There is always something else waiting for us when we accomplish a goal.

Many of us don’t see how lucky we are to be alive, to be healthy, to have a job, to have food on the table and a roof above our heads. These things are taken so much for granted, just because these things are the ‘basics’ of life. When as a matter of fact, THAT is luxury.

It is a luxury to be alive in a free country, where you can speak your mind and do what you want. It is a BIG LUXURY to be healthy, walking and running and talking and moving and playing and working and traveling and reading without feeling any pain or being limited. It is a luxury to have food in your stomach and going to sleep in a warm bed. It is a luxury to have clothes to choose from in the morning, clean water to drink, and be able to go to the movies once in a while.

If you can not see how lucky you are now, you will never be happy. The attitude that you show when you have the “simple” things in life with bring you the “bigger” things you desire. Going on a holiday far away, lying on the beach, sipping on your cocktail will mean nothing and it won’t even add anything to your happiness if you are not well.

Luxury is when you recognize how lucky you are and how blessed you are in your daily life. Anything else that comes after that is just a temporary happy thing. It won’t keep you satisfied for the rest of your life.

How many times do you feel sad when coming back from a very nice holiday, or when a great party just finished, or when you phone broke and you have to get a new one. Temporary happiness is fine and you need some of that in your life, but don’t let it take your focus away from the true happiness that you already have.

In the end the simple things in life are what count the most.

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Useless advice

We are all walking around giving people advice that need it and tell everyone what to do and how to solve their problems.

What you preach, you have to practise yourself. What is the use of giving advice when you don’t even follow your own? Many say you have to be patience in life and what not, yet when they are waiting in line at the supermarket they count the seconds.

People tell others to be nice and accepting of everyone and not to discriminate, yet when someone is different then them, they will be first one to point out the differences.

Everyone posts on their social media to follow dreams, to go after what they want, to be positive, that happiness comes from within, yet all they do is complaining about their daily jobs and how bad they hate it. How they are unhappy and they are not living the life they wish to live.

If you are a walking spiritual – religious – positive – happy guru, why don’t you take your own advice? Why is it that we have solutions for everyone but ourselves?

We are too scared to look within, and our minds want to occupy the empty space that we have to solve our own problems with someone’s problems. We love to solve other people’s problems, we want to hear more complaining, more rumors, more problems because at least we are turning the focus on someone else.

You can always help others, but don’t forget your own life. We can not forget ourselves, our beautiful souls need healing too. We need someone that can listen to us too. Not hearing our complains, but hearing our pain and help us heal it.

When the time has passed, it will be too late to start thinking about what we could have done, should have done, should have healed, could have tried.

Why is it that on our deathbeds we start thinking about our life, why don’t we think about it now that we are alive!

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